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A Damaged Mirror

 

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Havruta with a One-Eyed Cat: Philosophical ramblings through the Talmud with a feline study partner

"What is the meaning of that which is written: “Iron sharpens iron (Proverbs 27:17)?” asks Rabbi Hama ben Hanina. "To tell you that just as these iron implements sharpen one another, so too, Torah scholars sharpen one another in halakha. (Ta'anit 7a)

But in Pixel's case, it's her claws that she sharpens!

Credit, Hope, and the Law of Conservation of Good

March 21, 2017 by Yael Shahar 2 Comments

What does extending credit have to do with the evolution of sentient life? And what does either concept have to do with karma and conservation laws? The answer depends on whether your interlocutor is a cat.

Of Property Law & Mortality: Pixel on Bava Batra 29a

November 21, 2016 by Yael Shahar 2 Comments

With a single line of commentary, a discussion in the Talmud about property law suddenly becomes a glimpse into time, eternity, and mortality. And what better discussion partner for such things than a cat?

Pessachim 10a and Quantum Uncertainty

July 4, 2013 by Yael Shahar Leave a Comment

Pixel lectures on Talmud

Pessachim 10a deals with questions of doubt and the limitations of knowledge. Trust a one-eyed cat to explain how these questions are answered by quantum mechanics.

Gemara Sanhedrin 73a – Saving the victim or saving the perpetrator?

April 22, 2013 by Yael Shahar 2 Comments

Pixel contemplates the Gemara

Humans are complicated, and constantly in need of fixing, says Pixel. Everything they do sets up ripples–chains of consequences. Only humans have to be protected from themselves even at the cost of their lives, because only humans have so great an impact that the world fights back. Humans are loose cannons!

Pixel’s Secrets of Google Indexing

February 8, 2013 by Yael Shahar Leave a Comment

I had locked up and was happily ensconced in my chair, a warm quilt wrapped around me, when I recalled that I had left my phone outside. I looked around for the key. It was nowhere to be found. I looked under my books, under the pillow on the couch, under the unfolded laundry on the dining table (gotta do something about that before Shabbat). No keys.

“Have you tried googling them?” asked Pixel.

Sanhedrin Perek 3 – Grass roots vs. rule from above

December 24, 2012 by Yael Shahar Leave a Comment

Pixel

Should litigants have any say in choosing the third judge? R’ Meir favors governance from the grassroots level, the sages not so much! One thing about studying Talmud with a feline havruta–you end up with some irreverent insights to the daf!

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Returning is a compelling, puzzling, remarkably honest story of a Jew’s sins against his people and his tradition, and of his search for forgiveness and restoration.
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Yael Shahar is the author of Returning. She spent most of her career working in security and intelligence, with brief forays into teaching astronomy and physics. She now divides her time between researching trends in terrorism and learning Talmud with anyone who will sit still long enough.

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"In those circumstances we are reduced to bare existence, bereft of all that we once believed to define us. Naked, we have no pockets in which to store the things that we once used in the natural trade of human interactions. Instead, we come to value a different currency—our humanity. It is this currency that truly defines us, and even death cannot entirely devalue it. The more is taken away, the more we value what is left."

 

- Ovadya ben Malka, A Damaged Mirror

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“We stand on the edge of the abyss, across whose unknowable face we paint meaning so as not to see into it. It is always there. But we’re here too, and we are no less real than the abyss. We are no less meaningful for being transient creatures caught up in something too big for us. There is still value to our lives. I’ve learned that those things that are most fragile are also the most precious.”

 

― Ovadya ben Malka, A Damaged Mirror

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