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The Past in the Rear-view Mirror

January 18, 2015 by Ovadya ben Malka Leave a Comment

Warning! Objects in mirror may appear closer than they are

We live life always looking in the rear-view mirror.
The road ahead offers its surprises
Its own dangerous promises.
But we worry that the past will follow us there.
We fear to lose sight of it lest it catch us unawares.
So we steal a glance in the mirror
At night, when no one will notice.
In inarticulate nightmares.
Just a peak to see if it’s still behind us
and not before us…

(again
And again
Always returning
A shadow over present laughter
A stain on tomorrow’s promised joy)

Just a glance to make sure.
And of course, it’s there.
Not where we left it, but running behind
Keeping pace.
The past doesn’t tire,
Not when our own fear fuels it.

And there it is…
The view in the rear-view mirror
And yes, always appearing closer than it is
Because we never really left it.

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About Ovadya ben Malka

Ovadya ben Malka was born in 1926 in Saloniki, Greece. At the age of seventeen he was deported, together with his mother and younger sister, to Birkenau. His family was killed on arrival. He survived nearly two months in the quarantine camp, outlasting most of those who arrived with him, but his survival was to cost him dearly. The rest of his story is told in Returning, Kasva Press, 2018.

Dazzling… Returning is an extraordinary and challenging book on many levels.
– Philip K. Jason, Washington Independent Review of Books

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– Dan Sofer, author of the Dry Bones Society trilogy

Returning is a compelling, puzzling, remarkably honest story of a Jew’s sins against his people and his tradition, and of his search for forgiveness and restoration.
– Bill Tammeus, Faith Matters

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